d unspeakable truth...

have you ever feel hatred?? well, i mean you really have the feelings that people hate you instead of you hate people. what an unbearable feelings to feel this way. and sometimes you will spend your precious time just to think what have you did wrong for you to be hated?? and in this case, people who care less about these small things would be the lucky one of saving mind and soul to think such things. and bravo to them!

it is very unfortunate for those who will think and think cracking their heads, what is wrong with me?? i've been hated?? why do people hate me so much?? what did i do wrong?? questions, questions and more questions *unlike the Q&A sessions since no answers are provided -__-"

being in this kinda situation would bring about consequences whether good nor bad. lets look into the bad side of it 1st, as surely it is greater. lowering the level of self confidence *ayat yg sguh skema gtu* which will lead to bad achievements or results, even badly coped with life. everything is bad, bad and bed again...ooppss!! tired tho.. other than that, trusting others will no longer be possible *well not totally zero but exactly low

there is a good thing about feeling hated. and it is 'a' good thing, only. we will try to fix what we feel that is wrong with ourselves *muhasabah diri in Malay* and probably will happen for someone who has a little tiny bit of positive thinking. now2 enough crapping. the ideas are all gone as i had stuck in the lab for about 7 hours!!! *pheewww :(

well, seriously, feeling kinda down today. many things happened which i haven't yet figured out what exactly did i do wrong. is asking or trying to make a conversation is illegal?? if it is, like how it is stated in the law of Malaysia, then only i will accept that it is my fault. losing is the other thing. a precious gem that you have always loved being stolen or dropped and breaking apart surely leave a painful scar to you. knowing that it would never be yours again, is such a terrible truth to be accepted..

life is unpredictable. you will be at the top only for few moments, but sinking at the bottom, well, you could possibly die drowning just waiting to be saved. it is only IF you could save yourself....